Faeries, stardust, eternities.

Welcome to 2019 everyone 😀

Made fresh new resolutions, it’s 3 weeks in, I am doing good (With the working out part) except that I loop holed myself – I didn’t state workout for how long so I am kinda doing 10mins each time and not feeling the slightest of guilt that I just upped myself in my own game.

Sharing some snaps of my Xmas gifts.

All of my gifts below. Would say most of the list was fulfilled and im soooo happy 😀 😀 😀 I am a lucky girl.




Finally managed to get my long emptied sk II…. -_-



The most beautiful packaging HAHAHA Yes I couldn’t stand not snapping an individual pic of this. I always loved their packaging. Every girl’s dream 🙂 Thanks to R



The logo is silver-toned, else would have matched my Jet-setter set to the T. Love it anyways. XD


It’s raining here. I have the urge to write my thoughts out.

I could feel some major shifts happening in my life.  Not a moment passes where I do not think and fear the unknown, but I know that time is like an immortal heart that beats – I have to prepare and brace for whatever that comes.

Here’s a poem that pretty much divulges one of the biggest hurdles in my life right now; I wish the melancholic souls out there who chance upon this, can feel some familiarity and hopefully find momentary solace in a common angst. 



An owl dips, into the blackest skies,
soft in flight, quiet he flies
alone was I, cold hands shaking
loud crisp tones, of my heart be breaking.

My scraped knees are weak, soon I’d falter,
her out-worldly heart, soon shall wander.
Hands bleeding, flailing, I tried to grasp,
her shadow, like a dying ember, turned to dust.

Of grim, of gloom, a hell bent desire,
Woven with deceit, so pleased Belial.
Had it been so, satire of lust,
Of grief, of doom, a martyr of trust.

I watch her leave. 

Laced with sweet magnolias, and deadly nightshade,
pertinent to love, an asphyxiated heartbreak.
My worship to her, in all false opulence,
was masking damp cheeks, and where she sought forgiveness.

She turns to leave.

The wind sang her goodbyes, saying :

Time, to which we’re enslaved, in its cruel movements,
grants no concession but a binding warrant;
Oh love, my heart it yearns, for an eternity with you,
yet our destiny, are two hearts that will never heal.



Yes I know, I am turning 28 soon. And CNY is coming. I am not ready and not going to be pleased to answer all the “When are you getting married” questions by my relatives. Birthday’s coming…. I haven’t thought of a wishlist but to prevent *cue laughter* color pencils from happening again, I guess I have to come up with the list soon.




Losing Grip

Death is secondary.

I know like Christmas is long over. It almost feels as though I haven’t been blogging for a year. HA HA.

Thank you for all these lovely gifts. Yes Yes I love all of them to bits and all of these are put to great use. Gracias mucha



So guys I went to Montigo. Well as you know, your goddess is in poverty so naturally it was my virgin experience. GOD. So beautiful.

I want a house like that. Minus the inaccessibility, minus the ants, minus the cost.



OKAY. I love wordpress abit more now because they have that mosaic option that dumps all your photos into one picture so no one has to scroll endlessly. Not smart enough to be able to allow you to arrange which photos goes which part of the mosaic tho.

I love the bed. Want to bring it back with me. I WAS HAVING SO MUCH FUN LAZING IN THE POOL I WUZ LIEK A MERMAID. JUST IMAGINE you open that fucking glass door and you step out to embrace a god damn lapping pool, in discretion You could be like naked and only the glass panels are judging your body. In that hot weather, you soak up all of that cooling chlorine, IZ AWESOME.

Yes Sorry that photo was just me trying to show you how “sporty” I look. HAVEN’T BEEN DOING ANY SPORTS UNTIL THEN, SO LET ME JUST SHOW OFF MY SPORTY LOOK.

Finish your stay with a really fantastic buffet breakfast. You guys know thats my favorite meal of the day right. Nothing like waking up to bacon, omelettes and toasted bread.



SO MUCH SO AS YOU CAN SEE MY LOVE FOR GOOD ENGLISH BREAKFAST. It was so good. DO YOU EVEN KNOW how much skills you need to make that perfect omelette? I tell ya bro, your goddess is so good, she can turn the chicken cannibal by feeding it some OF ITS OWN.

A perfect omelette is packed with that solid, real egg substance. No crumbly bits, no overcooked (chinese styled ones) parts and definitely, a smooth smooth appearance. Almost like machine pressed.

When you pry it open, only the cheese drips just a little; not too much. This signifies that the egg has been cooked through and no messy raw eggy liquid is left. BUT, its still moist and tender inside.

I forgot to buy onions and parsley tho.



I CANNOT STOP LAUGHING EVERYTIME I SEE THIS. Satirical but fuck. Mean jokes are funny because people need a break from humanity. From people who leave comments like “THIS IS NOT FUNNY MY AUNT GOT CANCER”. ??? like ???. You go google every joke and leave a comment like this? Jesus christ. My mum is ill too but we laugh it off CUZ IT DOESN’T MAKE THINGS WORSE.


SO ANYWAY, here is my wish list. Please do let me know what you intend to buy. I KNOW IT SOUNDS LIKE A TRANSACTION BUT, this is to avoid people getting the same stuff without knowing like the previous few times :’D

Thank you all my lovely people. I will bless you with the power of great sarcasm and the ability to fuck someone hard with their clothes on.


  1. (MY ABSOLUTE WANT) Brahms doll (from the horror show The Boy)
  2. $200 Jeric’s salon voucher / cash
  3. Samantha thavesa large card and coin purse in saffiano leather.
  4. Loccitane hair repair oil and spray
  5. Razer star gazer
  6. Samsung ssd 1 tb (building my desktop)
  7. An aghanim’s scepter necklace
  8. Pandora’s “my princess” ring, size 8
  9. Witch doctor’s drum roll frog
  10. 50$ steam credit
  11. Tumi’s backpack in black with gold zips
  12. Muji’s packing cubes and travel duffel
  13. Victoria secret’s medium flat pouch in lace
  14. Drow ranger’s monarch bow
  15. Saffiano leather card holder for lanyard
  16. Victoria’s Secret silken floral scarf
  17. Stream donations to pay my bills 😉

Considering the fact that I chalked up quite abit as well being Santa Claus on Christmas, is it time to get pampered alittle?


Goodnight guys.

I made a pun today. I named my excel file which keeps crashing as “NEW SHEETY DOCS”.

I love my idiosyncrasy for absolutely random and stupid stuff.



Losing grip.

I laced my fingers against yours,
in that hot summer.
The strawberry milkshakes
and a million heartbreaks.

When our bodies entwined,
my heart pulsated and detached,
further from me, closer to you.
It was like electromagnetic field.

I tried to untangle myself
from this horrid mess,
my heart strings they chimed
still unbroken, by time

Your name to my ears,
still grants a bleed
You have gone too far, too far
but i’d die again, to be right where you are.

the best things in life are not free, they come at 2.2k in the shape of an ROG laptop.

I fucking swear,

it’s either I am a poor + stupid woman, or wordpress is really a fucked up piece of shit. For a start. YOU CANT,!!! YOU CAN’T go to the web template editor to edit your own layout using html codes.YOU NEED TO PAY LIKE 70 BUCKS TO DO THAT.

WHO THE FUCK WILL PAY 70 BUCKS just to change the font used in the blog??? OR 70 BUCKS just to CHANGE THE COLOR OF THE HEADER. I don’t see that happening at blogger.com.

Okay, forget it. You don’t let me customize my template, that’s fine. Let’s go over and see what other ready made ones we can use. OH WOW. 90% OF THE THEMES NEED TO BE PAID FOR USAGE.

It’s not 1 dollar. its not 5 dollars. ITS FUCKING 20-70 dollars for one bloody fucking theme AND THAT STILL DOES NOT INCLUDE the CUSTOMIZATION OF YOUR OWN HTML. I think. I don’t know. because ain’t nobody so stupid to buy the themes when I can make one myself.FOR FREE. IF ONLY.

I am seriously thinking about moving back to blogger.com but the transition will be a hassle because I already have so many posts and photos uploaded here.

The current font and color for my current theme seems to make it hard for you guys to read coherently. Trust me, I tried all of the free themes but they suck balls. I am so sorry. I will definitely try to see how to tweak the photo sizes and typing arrangements so its best for you guys to read with ease.

Now that my screen is 17.3″ I need to make sure I make the photos smaller even though it looks extra small on my screen.


Anyway, enough of whining. ARE WE NOT GOING TO TALK ABOUT MY ROG LAPTOP????
<inserts crappy music mix> But first, let me take a selfie. 

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Took this at the food hygiene course I attended. I really loved my eyeliner on this one because for the first time its actually balanced on both eyes. I kinda miss working at the small company that conducted the courses… It was a place where I can be creative, informal and still get to provide customer service. But really… the pay and the boss is like >.>

That was years ago tho. Time flies, as like everyone says but we all failed to fully see the power of every second. Now that I think about it, there’s only (theoretically) 5 working days in a week, 2 days for us to play. then it becomes a new week. There’s only 4 weeks in a month. Its really really fast. We only realize how fast it goes every Sunday, and every end of the year.

Your goddess is getting old, and not a fair bit more awesome than before. I need to change that.


OKAY, So before we get started

on my ROG lappy, here’s a quick pic of my favorite smoked duck. It’s from cold storage. There’s two types, one is the original, and one black pepper. Get the black pepper one because the other one tastes like fetus.

And yes, its really really good. Expensive though. 4.95 for one. But its large, tender, juicy, moist and flavorful. It’s the closest you can get to wetting your pants from food.

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The cute boy working at challenger called, and said MY FUCKING BABY IS WAITING FOR ME IN THE SHOP.

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I walked into the tiny shop and saw the beautiful box (extremely large too) waiting for me by the cashier. Cute boy offered to help me set the laptop up.

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There’s the cerberus which is a gaming headset that comes included in the purchase. It’s a promotional item so it’s not available off the shelf.

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I squealed when he took the laptop out because it was so beautiful. My heart was pounding so fast! Omg.

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My hands were shaking when I took this pic. HAHAHA. I had work and a jb trip so I was only able to unpack and set it up at home like 4 days after bringing it back.

This is a comparison of my old laptop vs the rog:

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rog full size

Can you see the difference in the screen quality? It’s pretty hard to see the size comparison because my older one was already 15.6″ so not that much of a difference in size. But the rog baby is really heavy… about 4.3kgs as compared to 3kgs (my old acer one) It comes with a bigger and heavier battery too. God. Definitely not meant to be travel-friendly. Hahaha.

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Here’s a close up of the screen + the crimson keys.

It took me about 45mins to transfer my files from the old laptop into the HDD.

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But the ROGbaby only took about 20mins. But okay la, most of the new computers now already have USB 3.0.

I made a video as well, Sorry I look extremely ugly in the video. My face is somewhat distorted in there and I am not sure what the fuck happened as well. LOL.

Click here to go to the original youtube link : https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=GGh0-azbLwo
if the fucking video above doesn’t work.

Okay, now that you have seen that really stupid ugly video of me and wasted 1.30 minutes of your life, here’s another photo of me to re-beautify that image of your goddess in your mind.

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Worked for this new dance club called The Stage. Its the old St James Powerhouse and oh my god, so nostalgic. I used to frequent there back when I was 18-19 on Wednesdays and Saturdays. I love RNB and hiphop. Those were the days when music and dancing was more emphasized than drinking drinking drinking and girls pestering you to buy them shots because they earn commission from it. (That is basically every drinking place now)

The stage is actually a pretty good concept, and the boss is an extremely humble and friendly Korean guy. It has a live band playing all night, and a good mix of 80s, RnB and abit of edm. Very good ambience. However in my personal opinion… It’s not good to have “party girls” there who are overly pushy for shots. It deviates from the “Chill-out” concept. But well. I have decided that I won’t be working there anymore, But i may pop by for a drink one day.

I think one of the reasons why I can’t be successful in getting guys to buy me “ladies drink” so that I can earn from it is simply due to the fact I myself don’t endorse the idea of men spending 100-150 dollars for a tray of fruit juice. Of which, I only earn a small share of. Might as well give me the money….

Also, I never believed in asking/begging for something from a guy. I think that if he is sincerely and genuinely interested in wanting to make a good impression, he will buy you the drinks on his own.

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I worked during the soft launch of The Stage and the friendly boss bought this for another girl working there. 30 tequila shots. And nope, I really wanted to help her out but I hate tequila. Its the bane of my life.

Enough of nightlife and work and money. It’s fucking stressful to talk about them. LOL. Let’s destress and look at the resemblance Z has to chickens and ducks.

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LOOOOOOOOOOOL i don’t think anyone of you will allow me to take photos of you guys the next time we go out together.

rog baby 23But hey, I do take normal photos with people too. I love the holiday season and will always wear the santa hat when I am out. Sorry, Look like shit here with only a face powder. Yes, I love this photo only because I look cute with the hat. LOL 😉 😉

Went Christmas shopping with Mr lawyer and he brought me to a yakitori place called Sumire Yakitori House at Bugis Junction. Stuffed our faces with an array of food. The cold tofu in Goma sauce damn fucking awesome. I also really liked their “chicken tail” and Mushroom sticks. Way cheaper than my favorite Yakitori place, Tori Tama.

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Notice that super fat potato croquette in the middle of the photo. If you haven’t watched the video of it I uploaded on Insta, please do. It’s fucking awesome. HAHAHA. my insta’s name is Valeisky if you haven’t already know.

So I chanced upon this whilst online. Now we know who to not offend if we want to stay alive.

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Looks like I better not drive Z crazy lest you find me one day with a razor embedded in my throat. No wonder he always told me he likes razer products. NOW I KNOW.

Here, have a pic of a fat and generous slab of foie gras.

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Don’t worry, your goddess didn’t have the privilege to eat it too. Mr lawyer sent it to me because Leos love to evoke jealousy in other people. HAHAHA. Fuck, i almost typed “invoke jealousy”

invoker lol

LOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOL. Anyway I do not own this beautiful drawing of invoker. the original photo is accessible by clicking the photo.

I may upload a video of me playing invoker soon with Z screaming instructions at me as a mentor. But first I need to get a camera because fucking iphone.


I had to cancel work (fucking x1.5 pay $$$$) because of bad gastric. And I was being so sad and emo at home thus my sweet sister decided to ask me and Z to join her boyfriend and her for a mock-up christmas party at home.

She hung the glowstick on our very grumpy lycan:

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rog baby 30me: Waaaa mei,so romantic, you make heart shape for you and jasper ah?

Now we know. HAHA

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LOL. My sister bought this packet of fake snow and placed it into a container. It does actually feel like the real thing. Just that you can keep this for a long long time ;D

I prepared some last minute Christmas dishes and we had some wine. I couldn’t eat too much tho, But it was all great.

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We had almond cheese crackers, Spinach pizza, gyoza nuggets as well as lychee+longans and even a mini logcake. HAHA.

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I guess money can always be earned. But nothing beats spending a special occasion with people/animals that love you. 😀

Yes, I am a very very lucky girl 😀 Thank you to all of you who bothered to buy me a present. It really means alot to me because I spend alot of my hard earned money buying presents for everyone who matter because I know it always feels nice to receive an Xmas gift!


Let’s end things on a wonderful and happy note with an essential oil that I came across whilst hunting for presents:

rog baby 38Quantum technology 😉

Goodbye guys. I hope you had a good Christmas and a coming-soon New year 🙂 It’s time to make those resolutions that we don’t fucking fulfill again, is it not? 😀

Thanks for reading thousands of words painstaking written by your goddess for 3 hours.