Lucid.

I dreamed of him again.

I hate it when it happens. I wake up heart pounding, tears in my eyes and; the feeling of reality dawning upon you is like falling down an abyss. You hit the cold hard ground, except that you don’t die. You just start to continue living.

We were still together in this dream. As like most of the many other times I dreamed of him.

He was still so beautiful in my dream. I could touch him, feel his warmth and hear his voice. His quiet, soft spoken voice. Asking me questions that he always did, holding me like he always did.

But I guess people always say dreams carry some sort of truth that you fear facing in reality. It probably materialize in this dream plane. He’s still arguing with me in my dream. Trying to accuse me of hanging out with another guy, wanting to break up, over and over again.

And as usual, I was begging him, even in this make believe world. Begging him to stay, telling him I’d do anything and give up anything just so he would stop. STOP.

Stop constantly saying things to remind me that I am so easy to replace. Stop reminding me that I love you very much to the point I can allow you to trample all over my pride and the heart I acquiescently presented to you.

I was angry, yet at the same time, the yearning of wanting to go back to him, needing to hold him, is so, so strong. That was how I felt, every single second of my days spent with him. And apparently its no different in my dreams of him.

And then I woke up. My heart started to sting upon realizing it’s all fake and that I’ll never actually get to see him or hear his voice again. For a split moment, through a crack in my pride, I wished we still were. Even if it meant I had to beg.

There’s a saying – kinks not ironed out during a breakup, form a dead knot in your heart. When it is all over, the dead knot anchors to the bottom of your heart, ever tugging, ever cruelly reminding.

He is the first man who left this knot within me.

And I don’t think I’ll ever get over.

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Too old to leap

My beautiful readers,

The abandonment of poetry in my head was rather hard to accept for the past few days. Through all the turmoil, I decided that the best way to let the river of happiness, of undaunted inspiration course through the meander once more, is to remove the obnoxious, destructive dam that the evil inklings of my deteriorated health, of bad people in my career have built.

I am resigning.

It has been a “dream job”. Not my dream. My grandfather’s dream. To see me don that beautiful kebaya and serve passengers high up in the air. Yes, for those of you who do not know, I am employed in Singapore Airlines. I kept it under wraps (or at least tried to) because I do not enjoy letting my work life / colleagues / personnels interfere with my own personal life.

Because I, in fact, love my personal life, this awesome profile that I have built and I will never let my career get in the way. If not better, my career should boost it, applaud it and celebrate it.

I have drafted a resignation letter, but I’m afraid its still in my draft box. I gradually realized the courage of swift and firm decisions that used to surge me in my younger days is no longer there.

Thoughts of adult problems crept into my mind, poisoning my heart, telling it that passion is going to cost me a fortune. Telling me that Happiness is secondary.

Can I say I am too old to just take a leap, and worry about the consequences later?

Man up Valeisky! Take the leap.

No ragrets.

 

Once this has been settled, I am bringing to you guys a nice little 3 series short proses along with 3 photos, 1 per prose. I am really excited about it. And I hope words won’t abandon me by then.

Love you guys. Thank you for supporting me so much.

Obsession.

If I could manipulate elements, time & space, matter, even;

I want not to save the world, but to put you in a little glass dome.

You can have it filled with crystalline snow that billows, dancing to the cold, singing with the howling wind. Fear not my love. Think not of it as fearsome as The Shining. I’ll make you feel warmth where the prick from ice would be. Fashion you a castle made of only the sturdiest from the frozen kingdom. Wolves will litter at your feet, for you to play or to kill. Crystal maidens will wait on you, presenting nothing but egregious robes and hot food. The nation will celebrate your beauty and my unyielding love for you, bitter like frost, undaunted.

Or even, laze eternally by the beach whose horizon can’t be fathomed. Endless waves, always sunny. I’ll conjure seashells of the finest, most exotic patterns, but none as amazing as you. I’ll make the mermaids sing of my love for you, in their hauntingly sweet melody. The crabs and lobsters, all sumptuous crustaceans line up to queue for their noble deaths upon a merry flame, served smoking hot on your golden plate. So that you, my queen, can have the freshest harvest still piquant of the roaring salty waves.

If you want it mythical, there’s nothing my imagination will stop at just for a smile across your porcelain face. Unicorns will prance for you, glistening in the sunlight with their majestic manes, sparkling like how they should be. The forest green and lush, sings a secret rhyme, wildflowers will wave at you with glee. Your footsteps will sprout endless cycles of spring – Of magnolias, roses, tall looming trees even. You will be the giver of life. Just like how you are, like my syncopated breath. I’d throw in a Snow White fantasy if you’d even just whisper for it. Rabbits, deer and the great grizzly bear; they will keep you company in happy banter. You will never be alone.

How about a New York city dream, the poshest penthouse in Manhattan. All that glitters awaits in a walk in wardrobe. Ceiling to floor windows that grant intoxicating view of the skyline, guarded by sweeping curtains of the finest silk and linen. Do you indulge in books? For I can bring stories of the entire universe to you. Everyday you can find yourself catapulting to a different time and place, all within the papyrus skimmed through your fingertips.ย  I can give you the entire city, if apple is your favorite fruit. A fancy car to tour the city, Maserati, Lamborghini or would you prefer a Ferrari?ย  I hope you like Need for speed.

The list would go on. But I’ll save that for later. Because its 5.58 and in 2 minutes you will walk in to the diner and pour me the coffee that I am waiting for… And I, will clutch the cup firmly, hoping for a brisk touch of your slender fingers.

Bound to you.

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The night slip fell right off her, cascading like a silken waterfall. Her nipples stood rigid in the teasing breeze that sneaked in from the windows. The sheer curtains billowed like a gracious, heavenly hype.

It was 2 in the afternoon and she has led him to the hotel room that she was put up for the night. Meanwhile, the boring conference in the convention hall ensued.

“Would you like to have me one more time?” She walked towards him. His fingers were gripping the glass cup apprehensively. She pushed his frozen arms down gently, and made him put down the drink.

With a fleeting notion that was so well practiced, she rested her bare bum on the arm rest, and wrapped her hands around his neck like a mystic serpent. Her breasts encased his face softly in her tight embrace, begging to be caressed.

He wanted to remain antagonistic, but his lewd mind was spiraling out of control. His lips searched like a frantic man lost in the desert, and found its way to her nipple. With every flick of his tongue, she let out subtle cries, almost melodious. The atmosphere turned euphoric.

It was a frenzy.

He held onto her waist pulling her down onto his lap. as they synchronously rocked to the beats of lust, the overwhelming eroticism made her so wet, his pants were drenched right where his throbbing shaft was. With his free hand, he helped himself greedily to her flailing breast, groping, mashing and working in harmony with his tongue.

She then reached for his belt and zipper clumsily. He aided in that effort by tilting himself. The pants littered the floor in no time. He was half naked, and fully ready.

She gyrated her hips, feeling the length of him, warm and throbbing inside her. It was like ecstasy. Her muscles squeezed tight like a blushing clam, projecting him into delirium. Her juices flowed like a trickling stream, supplying to the chorus of sensual symphony.

With one sweep, He threw her onto the couch. He was so unlike himself. Her legs parted like a flower in spring, her nether lips in full bloom. Waiting for him. Hungry for him. He penetrated her furiously, one hand on her neck. He enjoyed the near asphyxiation that he granted her. Her face turned a petal pink, as she gasped so impertinently. Lips parted like she was ready to give a fellatio. The sight fueled his aggression as he pounded her like street choreography. Calculated, passionate and in bold strides.

He wasn’t done with her. He turned her over, Ass cheeks facing him. It was a gloriously brazen sight. He fed her swollen pussy with his manhood, making a callous entrance. His fingers then gathered her hair. He yanked as he pumped hard against her body. Her head tilted backwards from the brute force of his hair pull. Her moans were blocked, coming out in short hysterical notes.

!!!! He raised his hand, with dead accuracy, his palm landed on her butt. The spank was so loud it echoed across the spacious room. She screamed, body contracting from the shocking pain. She tightened even further.

A satisfied groan slipped through his lips. He couldn’t stop spanking her until her butt turned as red as her labia.

He was ready to come. He pushed her onto the coffee table. the fruit platter fell onto the carpet soundlessly, and still in perfect display. He knelt down carelessly, to nibble on her distended clitoris. His tongue lashed mercilessly against her wet crevice. He sucked hard, as if feasting upon her nectar. He inserted a finger, searching for the sweet spot.

He located it with sheer memory, plunging in and out relentlessly. Her eyes were unable to maintain sight. She gripped his head tightly, begging for him not to stop. The pleasure surmounted all her senses as all physical strength abandoned her. It was like a shockwave.

Her juices squirted, spewing in all directions. The liquid dribbled down his arm.

“Don’t stop!” She begged. Her grip deadlocked, the pleasure built up and then unfurled. It was an eruption. Her lower torso contorted to accommodate the violent bursts of fluid. The carpet was thoroughly doused.

He reveled at this audacious feast before his eyes. His shaft was so eager, the veins pulsed and dilated. He mounted her, giving her no time to recover. Both hands seized her pendulous breasts. Her arms thrashed wildly. The susceptibility drove her wild. He hammered her hard. The coffee table was sturdy, but it too was creaking just a bit.

“I’ll come now?” He asked. Manners apparently was so ingrained in him it did not forsake even the beast.

She nodded, eyes out of focus. She was panting heavily. In hard, angry strokes, he pushed, the sounds so loud it drowned her screams. He then came, like tidal waves. Spilling everything into her.

And then, too polite to flop motionlessly on top of her, he decided to get up. She cued in agreement as she then gently pushed him off before getting up and walking to the bathroom in a single, albeit slightly shaky, graceful gait.

He walked up to her “Don’t wash up. I want you to go like that. With my cum inside you.”
She did not raise an eyebrow but did as instructed. Her panty was soiled. His seeds were trickling out.

It was her turn to present at the conference.

“You still take the pill right?” He asked. It was a question he asked every day they fucked, from when they were dating, till they were married, and then…

She handed him the divorce papers. “There you go. It’s all done.”

“Yes. My boyfriend do not like children. Just like you.” She said as a matter of fact.

He tried to maintain a stoic expression, but wavered.

She on the contrary, was calm as a lake in the late of night. She picked her bag up and headed to the door.

“See you Wilson. You can shower before you go. Say hi to Rebecca for me. Thanks for the awesome fuck by the way. ”

She turned and never looked back. Just like the very first time she walked in to him banging her (ex) best friend.

The door closed shut. Just like the reality before him in form of papyrus. This binding…. will now slowly fade away, leaving nothing but regret and a stained panty.

Birthday Hype

Hello everyone sorry I am blogging about my birthday only after 1 month of the actual day. STILL HYPING ABOUT IT BECAUSE I’M AT THE AGE OF WEDLOCK AND I NEED A HUSBAND.

AND ALSO IF U CHINESE. my birthday fell on CNY day 3 this year.

X2 ANGBAO. BUT IF I GET MARRIED MUST GIVE ANGBAO INSTEAD OF TAKE. So better cherish all dem angbao whilst I still can.

I drew Lady and the Tramp to celebrate CNY. So talented y’all.

Just in case you ain’t as old as me and did not have such an awesome childhood and do not know what Lady and the Tramp is, Here’s a pic.

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If you have never watched this animation before, please do. It’s so good. And also, the Tramp looks like Lycan. ๐Ÿ˜€


Yes, we form a heart shape in this pic with lycan. Sums up the things I love in life.
Thank you all for those lovely presents… I love every one of them.

One of my birthday treats this year includes a night’s stay at an AirBnB at Johor, AT DANGA BAYYYYYYYY.ย 

It’s really pretty and I just had to show you guys the pics of the room. Gave me some room decor ideas.

It’s a studio apartment kind but I’m really impressed with the kitchenette cuz you know I love cooking and was pleasantly surprised that the area is spacious enough to whip up a storm.

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I love the white brick surface, it’s my dream to have white brick walls in my future house. (Wifey instincts sets in) IF I WILL EVEN HAVE A HOUSE ๐Ÿ˜ฅ

Look at that space of the kitchenette!!! And I love the concept of counter top dining. Its EXACTLY what I want for myself.

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My favorite part of the room; This shelf here. So hipster but really dreamy! I always spend alot of time decorating my Sims’ houses with all these quaint little decor cuz they just look too good.

They have a cute little book for you to write your “I WAS HERE” lol.

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DANGA BAY

What can I say, the place is really gorgeous. This particular airbnb isnt the one with the sea view, But the actual Beach is a mere stone throw away.

 

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J brought me to eat the famous abalone noodles for supper the night of our stay. Its really good! But there are many stores around… God’s tongue says this stall is the best. I have tasted many. I DONT KNOW WHAT’S THE ADDRESS JUST LOOK FOR THIS RED BOWLS. HAHA

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The location is great, near to SG and near outlet shopping ๐Ÿ˜‰
Yes….. outlet shopping is good.

And legoland. Didn’t get to go tho because your goddess is scared of turning black.

If you guys are interested to check out Danga bay, feel free to check out this Air BnB! Totally instagram-worthy.

https://www.facebook.com/lovelockhomestay/

 

Anyway to summarize this post as well as my entire birthday month:

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THIS PHOTO SAYS IT ALL. Will be back with my Bintan Trip post, and review of the Canopi.

Gracias muchas everyone.

CANT CHANGE MY LIFE SO CHANGE ROOM

HI I KEPT MY PROMISE.

So basically I was like super thrilled to come on and post about all my amazing ROOM MAKEOVER.

Why the sudden decision? So yeah well as most of you know by now that I suffered an injury to my lumbar spine that affected all of the joints and muscles around it. The crack healed, but the joints are still in pain.

Been to therapy and things are looking better, but for some unknown reason, the pain is still persisting at times. The only good thing is at least now I can push open heavy doors and sit in cars without any pain. But I still can’t do things that seem like they don’t matter but you somewhat still need to do them.

Like, obviously. Rough sex. (GRIMACES + CRYING + NO MORE FIFTY SHADES) Can’t do freestyle when swimming LIKE WHAT THE FUCK THE ONLY SPORT I DO IS SWIMMING AND I CAN’T DO IT. AND (TO MY DELIGHT) I CANT DO HOUSEWORK.ย 

BACK TO THE POINT. I went to try a chiropractor out of exasperation, and he was like this really “THE PLANET AND I ARE ONE” kind of a zen guy and he said.

OUR SPINE, is the core of ourselves. Negativity in your life is absorbed by it, and thus gradually leading to a very stressed and painful spine. CHANGE YOUR LIFE, AND YOUR BODY WILL REACT TO THE GOOD CHANGE IN A POSITIVE WAY.ย ย 

It sounded damn shady and dubious but if you think about it. Its so true. It’s like how trees and plants can manipulate their own shapes to adapt to the environment. It’s a way of showing “Reaction” to the surroundings.

A plant withering in the desert grows deeper and wider roots in search for water. This not only enables them to maximize their chance of survival, but also tether firmer and stronger to the ground.

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*In deep thought* CANT CHANGE MY LIFE WHEN I DON’T HAVE ONE.ย 

So…. Change my room lor.

AND YES SO THIS IS THE PART WHERE I WHINE FOR HOURS BECAUSE I DELETED PHOTOS OF MY ROOM “BEFORE” THE MAKEOVER AS WELL AS SOME PHOTOS OF INSTALLING THE NEW DRESSER

IM A DUMFUK I KNOW.

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Nevermind. We’ll make do because I am a pedazo de mierda.

JUST KNOW THAT I HAD THIS HUGE ASS WARDROBE THAT’S SO HUGE, IT BLOCKED OUT THE SUN AND ALL MY “FORTUNE LUCK” AND OXYGEN.

 

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This is after I removed the wardrobe. It used to be so tall it was RIGHT below the aircon. And it spanned across the entire wall.

The dresser in the middle was actually my parents’. They BOUGHT A NEW ONE CUZ DEY RICH. SO their poor ass daughter took it and converted it into a mini dresser + cupboard.

It used to be a set of drawers all the way to the bottom. What I did was remove all the bottom 3 rows of drawers and cleared out the planks.

My dad helped me to install a metal rod across the width, so I can hang my tops.

Those were the remainder from the huge ass wardrobe that I had.

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It was super unsightly to just leave it uncovered, so My dad installed an additional “Mini Curtain rack” of which I purchased A scarf, 2 for RM 30/ 1 for RM 15 = 5 SGD.

 

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I saved money by converting the scarf into a little curtain instead of customizing one. HAHAHA. Aiya… not too bad ma right.

The left side of my wall is a fucking blank space of endless green. Not that I minded it, since that’s my favorite color. But I wanted to spice things up alittle and showcase my “creativity” to myself.

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I bought the frame below at only 10++ I think. And it’s made of plastic so its super light. 3M tape was enough.

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Hung it in the middle of the bare wall.

 

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Removed the sample drawings and drew my own ๐Ÿ˜€

 

Went to IKEA to find a few more frames + 2 racks, amounting to less than 25$ for all of them.

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Drew everything myself. But due to my lack of practice and talent I had to get reference from the net.

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My cursive so fucking crappy…..

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As you can see it still looks bare so lucky I bought em RACKS.

I DONT HAVE A NICE RACK SO I GOTTA BUY SOME FOR CHEAP THRILLS.

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On goes two racks, (Only 7.90 Each ty IKEA) Topped with some decor and maomaocongs

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Golden frame and potted plant from IKEA.

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LOL JUST IN CASE YOU WERE WONDERING WHAT THE FUCK IS THAT BLACK ASS SHIT ON THE RACK. I GAVE A ZOOM

ITS THE STONE THING IN JEJU THAT MY SISTER GOT FOR ME TO REMIND ME THAT SHE WENT TO HOLIDAY THERE WHEREAS HER POOR SISTER SUFFERED ALONE IN SG FOR XMAS + NEW YEAR.

I really liked the left side of the wall now. It’s cluttered with a homely and artsy feel without being too overwhelming. And to fill the frames with my own works gave me satisfaction that can’t be bought.

C and Dad helped me to drill em holes for the heavy racks to go up.

One of my favorite buys from IKEA is this gorgeous little seat that doubles as a storage space. It’s from the kids section and there was a sale going on at that time I purchased it. So I only got the thing at 50++ for the box/seat and 30 for the cushion (THE CUSHION OP AF BUT WHATEVER)

I featured the two drawings on my insta. Figured its the best place to place them HAHAHA. INSTAWORTHY CORNER OF MY ROOM OK.

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C helped me to put the entire thing together. It was super easy though, according to him no drilling was needed, and you just need to screw everything together using some twisty thing that comes included.

Box inside is also from IKEA. Can’t remember the price, but inexpensive.

It’s my mother’s favorite seat.

She’ll come in, plop her ass down and start nagging at me. I love it though.

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LOL SHE’S GONNA KILL ME BUT SHE DON’T KNOW MY BLOG EXISTS
>: D

 

The last part of my room makeover is this gorgeous Cupboard, again from IKEA’s kids section. It was the display piece and so instead of the U.P 90 dollars they sold it to me at 59. HAHA

And It was already constructed so SAVE THE EFFORT. Dad just plonked it into his van, and then TA DAH it’s snug in my room.

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Really pleased with the whole look of it. All my maomaocongs fit perfectly and there’s alot of storage space for all my work and travel stuff.

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Close up of my dresser. The mirror is from my old wardrobe. The huge ass one. I managed to salvage the mirror and it happened it was like PERFECT size for the dresser!!! Hung up my mermaid plaque… Had enough room on top for the essential daily facial products, my candle (Need it for my insomnia) and my photo frame.

It’s a pic of my grandfather and I taken just a while before his demise. And I don’t want to change this because this photo was printed by me just after he died. I want to remind myself of that ache that will never go away.

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Two remaining drawers hold my lingerie + make up brushes on the right, and make up kit on the left. Easy access for me when I am doing my makeup.

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Daily products in the VS box fits snugly into the left corner of the dresser. The cute little glass jar of cotton pads is purchased from DAISO.

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Managed to keep the lights from the old rack (FROM FIRST PIC ABOVE) and twirl them nicely around the new cupboard.

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Everything fits to the T and I am amazed by my own pro calculations. I JUST ESTIMATED LMAO.

 

SO OK I HAVE A NEW LAYOUT TO EMBRACE THE NEW YEAR ๐Ÿ˜€

BETTER HOPE I START EARNING A MILLION BUCKS AND MARRY RICH.

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Total cost of everything is less than 170!

I hope this post will help to inspire those who have been meaning to makeover their rooms too. It’s not going to be easy (the cleaning and setting up) but it doesn’t have to cost a lot. Not everything has to be new nor expensive!

And always DIY wherever possible. Its not only cheaper but more meaningful.

I feel very relaxed and happy now whenever I walk into my room. There’s alot of airy space and looking at things I love make me more driven to go towards my personal goals.

SO YOU SHOULD TOO!

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Will be updating again next week on my Short trip to Bintan, as part of a deal. Stay tuned for my review!

 

Birthday WISHlist + MEGA post this wknd

I know I know. It has been quite a looooOOoOoOOOong time since I blogged or streamed. Been wanting to do many things but quite handicapped at the moment because of my back and also Laptop being unavailable to me at the moment.

Desperately wanting to recover my back so that I can get back to work. But also, guess I may very well just have to start searching for new job alternatives because of work hazards that may injure my back again.

HIRE ME PLS.

Will update with a Mega post this weekend, Probably Sunday. Realized I erased all my photos off my old phone when I did my recontracting. God damn all the blog photos are gone too. :S

So mega post will be half assed. Ok better than flat assed. XD

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I cannot get this super mean fb post out of my head. lmao.

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Birthday wishlist on request, as usual; But I included alot of pretty delusional items cuz its a fucking wishlist anyway.

DON”T CALL ME LABEL WHORE, I HAVE NEVER EVEN SET FOOT INTO ANY OF THESE SHOPS LMAO.

BUT WE ALL NEED DREAMS. OK? (At least I didn’t ask for Son-O-Gong to be my boyfriend. I am REALISTIC.)

 

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BIRTHDAY WISHLIST.
2018 OLD BUT GOLD, Road to Menopause & Cougar titleย 

RANKED 1 MOST WANTED:

(no not need for speed)

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https://www.asus.com/sg/Laptops/ROG-GL702VS/

Probably intending to get myself a laptop as a birthday present by the end of this year…. HAHA.

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NEED FOR ALL REASONS BUT MORE FOR GOOD LUCK:

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Prada Leather wallet In Petal Pink, Metal Bow.
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Prada Leather Badge Holder in Black, Wrist strap.
# 1MC007_QWA_F0002

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NEED, FOR ALL REASONS, MORE BECAUSE I ACTUALLY NEED THEM:

 

TUMI Super Leger Intl’ Carry on, Black
# 0484670D
Monogram Gold, VT

 

 

Overnight Repairing Concentrate

L`Occitane Overnight repairing Concentrate

Repairing Oil

L`Occitane Repairing Oil

Repairing Mask

L`Occitane Repairing Mask

Almond Delicious Hands

L`Occitane Almond Delicious Hands

Almond Supple Skin Oil

L`Occitane Almond Supple Skin Oil

Almond Delicious Paste

L`Occitane Almond Delicious Paste

Aromachologie Repairing Shampoo Refill

L`Occitane Aromachologie Repairing Shampoo Eco Refill

OK, that’s basically the entire website. HAHAHA Kidding. I strongly recommend the repairing series for Hair care from them. And of course their Almond series. Good smell and keeps your skin absolutely soft. Really HUGE NEED for me whenever I am working.

For asian skin, I do not recommend their skincare. Use at your own risk. I tried their Makeup removing Milk and I had an allergic reaction. But the haircare is like, godsent.

 

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Lancome Hypnose DOLL lashes

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Lancome Cils Booster XL

 

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Bobbi Brown Nude Illuminating Powder In NUDE

 

Freaking need all these shit for work. Boohoohoo My job makes me spend more than I earn.

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WANT. I AM UNASHAMED THAT I WANT THEM.ย 

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TUMI Dara Carry-All In black. (SALE)
# 0484706D
Monogram GOLD, VT

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TUMI Nadia Convertible in Black.
# 0484702D
Monogram GOLD, VT

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DOTA 2 GESC JAKARTA 2018 VIP TICKET
(I know that escalated quickly from branded shit to a random tournament ticket)

 

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ONLY IN MY DREAMS AND IN ALL THE DREAMS OF MY SUBSEQUENT LIFETIMES:

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DOTA 2 SUNKEN RELIC EFFECT

Chanel BOY, Calfskin and Gold tone Metal in GREEN.

Going to pray I strike Lottery so I can get me one of these yummy things. Saw it being advertised on FB WHY DOES CHANEL EVEN ADVERTISE.

CHANEL Python & Gold tone metal in BLACK.
Probbaly not the way I want my snakes to be, but this is really gorgeous.

 

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Hermes Jeu Des Omnibus Remix Scarf 90 In Orange.

I told myself when I was about to get my first paycheck, that I will buy myself one of these beautiful but pretty useless scarves. That was like the only dream I really really wanted. But I couldn’t even bear to step into the Hermes store. Lololol. The thought of throwing 400 bucks away for a little cloth that can’t even keep you warm is just…..

 

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Ok guys that’s the end of my wishlist. PS to my friends and sister who are buying me stuff. Please let me know what you are getting so I can strike them out and work towards earning those that I have yet to buy ๐Ÿ˜€

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WATCH OUT FOR MY MEGA POST THIS SUNDAY ๐Ÿ˜€