CANT CHANGE MY LIFE SO CHANGE ROOM

HI I KEPT MY PROMISE.

So basically I was like super thrilled to come on and post about all my amazing ROOM MAKEOVER.

Why the sudden decision? So yeah well as most of you know by now that I suffered an injury to my lumbar spine that affected all of the joints and muscles around it. The crack healed, but the joints are still in pain.

Been to therapy and things are looking better, but for some unknown reason, the pain is still persisting at times. The only good thing is at least now I can push open heavy doors and sit in cars without any pain. But I still can’t do things that seem like they don’t matter but you somewhat still need to do them.

Like, obviously. Rough sex. (GRIMACES + CRYING + NO MORE FIFTY SHADES) Can’t do freestyle when swimming LIKE WHAT THE FUCK THE ONLY SPORT I DO IS SWIMMING AND I CAN’T DO IT. AND (TO MY DELIGHT) I CANT DO HOUSEWORK. 

BACK TO THE POINT. I went to try a chiropractor out of exasperation, and he was like this really “THE PLANET AND I ARE ONE” kind of a zen guy and he said.

OUR SPINE, is the core of ourselves. Negativity in your life is absorbed by it, and thus gradually leading to a very stressed and painful spine. CHANGE YOUR LIFE, AND YOUR BODY WILL REACT TO THE GOOD CHANGE IN A POSITIVE WAY.  

It sounded damn shady and dubious but if you think about it. Its so true. It’s like how trees and plants can manipulate their own shapes to adapt to the environment. It’s a way of showing “Reaction” to the surroundings.

A plant withering in the desert grows deeper and wider roots in search for water. This not only enables them to maximize their chance of survival, but also tether firmer and stronger to the ground.

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*In deep thought* CANT CHANGE MY LIFE WHEN I DON’T HAVE ONE. 

So…. Change my room lor.

AND YES SO THIS IS THE PART WHERE I WHINE FOR HOURS BECAUSE I DELETED PHOTOS OF MY ROOM “BEFORE” THE MAKEOVER AS WELL AS SOME PHOTOS OF INSTALLING THE NEW DRESSER

IM A DUMFUK I KNOW.

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Nevermind. We’ll make do because I am a pedazo de mierda.

JUST KNOW THAT I HAD THIS HUGE ASS WARDROBE THAT’S SO HUGE, IT BLOCKED OUT THE SUN AND ALL MY “FORTUNE LUCK” AND OXYGEN.

 

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This is after I removed the wardrobe. It used to be so tall it was RIGHT below the aircon. And it spanned across the entire wall.

The dresser in the middle was actually my parents’. They BOUGHT A NEW ONE CUZ DEY RICH. SO their poor ass daughter took it and converted it into a mini dresser + cupboard.

It used to be a set of drawers all the way to the bottom. What I did was remove all the bottom 3 rows of drawers and cleared out the planks.

My dad helped me to install a metal rod across the width, so I can hang my tops.

Those were the remainder from the huge ass wardrobe that I had.

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It was super unsightly to just leave it uncovered, so My dad installed an additional “Mini Curtain rack” of which I purchased A scarf, 2 for RM 30/ 1 for RM 15 = 5 SGD.

 

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I saved money by converting the scarf into a little curtain instead of customizing one. HAHAHA. Aiya… not too bad ma right.

The left side of my wall is a fucking blank space of endless green. Not that I minded it, since that’s my favorite color. But I wanted to spice things up alittle and showcase my “creativity” to myself.

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I bought the frame below at only 10++ I think. And it’s made of plastic so its super light. 3M tape was enough.

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Hung it in the middle of the bare wall.

 

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Removed the sample drawings and drew my own 😀

 

Went to IKEA to find a few more frames + 2 racks, amounting to less than 25$ for all of them.

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Drew everything myself. But due to my lack of practice and talent I had to get reference from the net.

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My cursive so fucking crappy…..

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As you can see it still looks bare so lucky I bought em RACKS.

I DONT HAVE A NICE RACK SO I GOTTA BUY SOME FOR CHEAP THRILLS.

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On goes two racks, (Only 7.90 Each ty IKEA) Topped with some decor and maomaocongs

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Golden frame and potted plant from IKEA.

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LOL JUST IN CASE YOU WERE WONDERING WHAT THE FUCK IS THAT BLACK ASS SHIT ON THE RACK. I GAVE A ZOOM

ITS THE STONE THING IN JEJU THAT MY SISTER GOT FOR ME TO REMIND ME THAT SHE WENT TO HOLIDAY THERE WHEREAS HER POOR SISTER SUFFERED ALONE IN SG FOR XMAS + NEW YEAR.

I really liked the left side of the wall now. It’s cluttered with a homely and artsy feel without being too overwhelming. And to fill the frames with my own works gave me satisfaction that can’t be bought.

C and Dad helped me to drill em holes for the heavy racks to go up.

One of my favorite buys from IKEA is this gorgeous little seat that doubles as a storage space. It’s from the kids section and there was a sale going on at that time I purchased it. So I only got the thing at 50++ for the box/seat and 30 for the cushion (THE CUSHION OP AF BUT WHATEVER)

I featured the two drawings on my insta. Figured its the best place to place them HAHAHA. INSTAWORTHY CORNER OF MY ROOM OK.

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C helped me to put the entire thing together. It was super easy though, according to him no drilling was needed, and you just need to screw everything together using some twisty thing that comes included.

Box inside is also from IKEA. Can’t remember the price, but inexpensive.

It’s my mother’s favorite seat.

She’ll come in, plop her ass down and start nagging at me. I love it though.

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LOL SHE’S GONNA KILL ME BUT SHE DON’T KNOW MY BLOG EXISTS
>: D

 

The last part of my room makeover is this gorgeous Cupboard, again from IKEA’s kids section. It was the display piece and so instead of the U.P 90 dollars they sold it to me at 59. HAHA

And It was already constructed so SAVE THE EFFORT. Dad just plonked it into his van, and then TA DAH it’s snug in my room.

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Really pleased with the whole look of it. All my maomaocongs fit perfectly and there’s alot of storage space for all my work and travel stuff.

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Close up of my dresser. The mirror is from my old wardrobe. The huge ass one. I managed to salvage the mirror and it happened it was like PERFECT size for the dresser!!! Hung up my mermaid plaque… Had enough room on top for the essential daily facial products, my candle (Need it for my insomnia) and my photo frame.

It’s a pic of my grandfather and I taken just a while before his demise. And I don’t want to change this because this photo was printed by me just after he died. I want to remind myself of that ache that will never go away.

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Two remaining drawers hold my lingerie + make up brushes on the right, and make up kit on the left. Easy access for me when I am doing my makeup.

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Daily products in the VS box fits snugly into the left corner of the dresser. The cute little glass jar of cotton pads is purchased from DAISO.

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Managed to keep the lights from the old rack (FROM FIRST PIC ABOVE) and twirl them nicely around the new cupboard.

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Everything fits to the T and I am amazed by my own pro calculations. I JUST ESTIMATED LMAO.

 

SO OK I HAVE A NEW LAYOUT TO EMBRACE THE NEW YEAR 😀

BETTER HOPE I START EARNING A MILLION BUCKS AND MARRY RICH.

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Total cost of everything is less than 170!

I hope this post will help to inspire those who have been meaning to makeover their rooms too. It’s not going to be easy (the cleaning and setting up) but it doesn’t have to cost a lot. Not everything has to be new nor expensive!

And always DIY wherever possible. Its not only cheaper but more meaningful.

I feel very relaxed and happy now whenever I walk into my room. There’s alot of airy space and looking at things I love make me more driven to go towards my personal goals.

SO YOU SHOULD TOO!

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Will be updating again next week on my Short trip to Bintan, as part of a deal. Stay tuned for my review!

 

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Birthday WISHlist + MEGA post this wknd

I know I know. It has been quite a looooOOoOoOOOong time since I blogged or streamed. Been wanting to do many things but quite handicapped at the moment because of my back and also Laptop being unavailable to me at the moment.

Desperately wanting to recover my back so that I can get back to work. But also, guess I may very well just have to start searching for new job alternatives because of work hazards that may injure my back again.

HIRE ME PLS.

Will update with a Mega post this weekend, Probably Sunday. Realized I erased all my photos off my old phone when I did my recontracting. God damn all the blog photos are gone too. :S

So mega post will be half assed. Ok better than flat assed. XD

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I cannot get this super mean fb post out of my head. lmao.

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Birthday wishlist on request, as usual; But I included alot of pretty delusional items cuz its a fucking wishlist anyway.

DON”T CALL ME LABEL WHORE, I HAVE NEVER EVEN SET FOOT INTO ANY OF THESE SHOPS LMAO.

BUT WE ALL NEED DREAMS. OK? (At least I didn’t ask for Son-O-Gong to be my boyfriend. I am REALISTIC.)

 

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BIRTHDAY WISHLIST.
2018 OLD BUT GOLD, Road to Menopause & Cougar title 

RANKED 1 MOST WANTED:

(no not need for speed)

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https://www.asus.com/sg/Laptops/ROG-GL702VS/

Probably intending to get myself a laptop as a birthday present by the end of this year…. HAHA.

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NEED FOR ALL REASONS BUT MORE FOR GOOD LUCK:

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Prada Leather wallet In Petal Pink, Metal Bow.
# 1MH132_2AEE_F0442

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Prada Leather Badge Holder in Black, Wrist strap.
# 1MC007_QWA_F0002

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NEED, FOR ALL REASONS, MORE BECAUSE I ACTUALLY NEED THEM:

 

TUMI Super Leger Intl’ Carry on, Black
# 0484670D
Monogram Gold, VT

 

 

Overnight Repairing Concentrate

L`Occitane Overnight repairing Concentrate

Repairing Oil

L`Occitane Repairing Oil

Repairing Mask

L`Occitane Repairing Mask

Almond Delicious Hands

L`Occitane Almond Delicious Hands

Almond Supple Skin Oil

L`Occitane Almond Supple Skin Oil

Almond Delicious Paste

L`Occitane Almond Delicious Paste

Aromachologie Repairing Shampoo Refill

L`Occitane Aromachologie Repairing Shampoo Eco Refill

OK, that’s basically the entire website. HAHAHA Kidding. I strongly recommend the repairing series for Hair care from them. And of course their Almond series. Good smell and keeps your skin absolutely soft. Really HUGE NEED for me whenever I am working.

For asian skin, I do not recommend their skincare. Use at your own risk. I tried their Makeup removing Milk and I had an allergic reaction. But the haircare is like, godsent.

 

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Lancome Hypnose DOLL lashes

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Lancome Cils Booster XL

 

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Bobbi Brown Nude Illuminating Powder In NUDE

 

Freaking need all these shit for work. Boohoohoo My job makes me spend more than I earn.

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WANT. I AM UNASHAMED THAT I WANT THEM. 

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TUMI Dara Carry-All In black. (SALE)
# 0484706D
Monogram GOLD, VT

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TUMI Nadia Convertible in Black.
# 0484702D
Monogram GOLD, VT

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1BA045_2EVU_F0002_V_OOO

 

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DOTA 2 GESC JAKARTA 2018 VIP TICKET
(I know that escalated quickly from branded shit to a random tournament ticket)

 

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ONLY IN MY DREAMS AND IN ALL THE DREAMS OF MY SUBSEQUENT LIFETIMES:

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DOTA 2 SUNKEN RELIC EFFECT

Chanel BOY, Calfskin and Gold tone Metal in GREEN.

Going to pray I strike Lottery so I can get me one of these yummy things. Saw it being advertised on FB WHY DOES CHANEL EVEN ADVERTISE.

CHANEL Python & Gold tone metal in BLACK.
Probbaly not the way I want my snakes to be, but this is really gorgeous.

 

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Hermes Jeu Des Omnibus Remix Scarf 90 In Orange.

I told myself when I was about to get my first paycheck, that I will buy myself one of these beautiful but pretty useless scarves. That was like the only dream I really really wanted. But I couldn’t even bear to step into the Hermes store. Lololol. The thought of throwing 400 bucks away for a little cloth that can’t even keep you warm is just…..

 

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Ok guys that’s the end of my wishlist. PS to my friends and sister who are buying me stuff. Please let me know what you are getting so I can strike them out and work towards earning those that I have yet to buy 😀

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WATCH OUT FOR MY MEGA POST THIS SUNDAY 😀

 

 

Guess what I found

Was tidying my room. Chanced upon one of the earlier journals I kept. I keep one every year. Some survived through my mum’s gigantic purge of “unnecessary household items” but not all are so lucky.

 

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Seems my teenage adolescent pain was pretty unbearable and I think I can pretty much still remember how it felt.

Nonetheless the sorrow did not go wasted I guess I managed to channel it through the literature aspect. lolol

Here’s one of my favorites:

 

I am an angel, i wield a halo, a facade
My words they are magic, an immaculate art
I am a goddess, I define beauty
My movements are sex – erotic and pretty.

I am a temptress, a lubricious desire,
My touch unleashes, your lewd denial
I am the world, passion is my pawn
My eyes are like a weapon, a deceptive con.

I am an abstract, I delude conscience,
My heart abuses truth, and words so vicious.
I am an extreme, between love and hatred,
Females antagonists, whilst males are patriots.

I am a treachery, a betrayal of love,
philandering in blood, a motto I serve
I am, mere mortal, yet not
Delude the truth, if truth be sought.

 

Don’t we all miss that all so familiar childhood bullying. Not sure what led me to write this though. HAHA.

Anyway I managed to revamp my room! Will come up with a post once the curtain is done. Have a good week ahead.

Random Epiphany.

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Yes I know you are wondering why the fuck its so hideous. Its because I drew it in 3mins on Paint program. It’ll look good with a border but I cant be… Bordered

HAHAHAHA. Laughing at my own pun 😀

I want a change in my life. Some sort of Change. And I will do what I can to achieve it. If you are feeling low, just remember that we are all basketballs dropping at different speeds. And we will all bounce back up.

If you smash the ball down harder, It’ll come back up stronger. And I dont even play basketball FFS. And I failed my physics. But that’s how it works right? *Grimly recalling Physical education classes from 15 years back*

Jiayou! Let’s make the end of this year a beautiful one even though most of us did not fulfill any fucking new year resolutions. ITS OK YOUR NEXT CHANCE IS COMING IN LIKE, 1 MONTH.

Love you guys.

Sims 4 Ver 1.36.102.1020 BUG.

Hello guys. I know my website is usually my random boring laments about life.

But this post can actually literally save someone’s life if you are about as dumb as me when it comes to tweaking game settings/glitches/computer tech stuff.

FOR SIMS 4 FANS LIKE ME.

So basically, with this new patch Sims 4 has to introduce their latest EP, cats & dogs, I encountered a problem in game.

Error 122 and Error 102.

If you are reading this, you probably experienced the same thing as me. After i removed households to make room for my own creations/ restaurants, I get this blue filter flickering across the loading screen when I am trying to replace the current lots with new ones, or when I have deleted a family and I am trying to load another family to play. The game then kicks you to the “Manage Worlds” view and displays the error message:

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Its either 102: (Live Mode) or 122: (Build Mode).

I read a fuck ton of forums, and apparently people are suggesting its because of all the mods you have in game. However, I do not think so. I have tried to remove them and it still doesn’t work. What I can conclude is that as like alot of other games’ updates, they can get very glitchy…. especially SIMS. Who still remember how fucked up Sims 3 was?

What I can suggest right now is, make a few restore points right now first. You can still play from the older savepoints after restoring. However, AVOID deleting people, moving households, building new houses on new lots etc. You can still play Live mode. I tried it and it works fine. I read somewhere that Switching households fucked things up too.

I have yet to try it.

So anyway, there are alot of talk on this right now so I am sure Maxis gonna fix it soon. What I am here to talk about is, basically, being the hasty and angry bitch I was, I was so furious at first that I DELETED ALL MY SAVES. 

I. DELETED. ALL. MY. SAVES.

ALL. LIKE, MY LIFEWORK.

The main page goes back to that HUGE ASSED “PLAY” BUTTON. There’s no load game, and new game.

When I pressed on the PLAY, it directed me to the CAS screen, as like when I first started playing.

If you have ever done the same stupid thing as me and you are literally crying your ass off like me just now, and desperately searching forums but no one seemed to be as stupid so none of the threads showed anyone doing it, Fret not. I am here to show you what you can do to get your beloved save back.

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If you did not delete your saved games, and simply just want to restore your saves,

simply go to the main screen, click Load game, see that little green button at the bottom right? Click it and try to restore a save point.

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IF you, like me, DELETED EVERY SINGLE FUCKING SAVE FROM THE “LOAD GAME” MENU SHOWN ABOVE:

I am on Windows 10, and I DO NOT USE ONEDRIVE. SO all I did was this, (After trying not to cry and desperately exhausting all means to find a solution)

Firstly, if you can’t really read all the gibberish that the saves are named as, I suggest you just MAKE A NEW GAME FIRST. Like, go into CAS, make a sim, and then save the game.

Go to your directory as I have highlighted below. If yours is empty (Because you just deleted all of your saves) Don’t panic first. Do as I have said above. Create a new save file.

My photo here is only after I recovered mine successfully. Mine was blank as a sheet at first too.

If you have made a new save as said above, you will see something like that above, but shorter. probably only 1-3 files. Take note of the 0000000 something. The last digit.

Then, Go to the PROPERTIES of this folder as shown below.

A pop up appears. Go to “Previous Versions”

You will see a folder that shows “saves”

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If you click open, another pop up will appear. It shows you A LIST OF SAVES.

LOOK AT THE NUMBER BEHIND THE 0000000 CAREFULLY. IT SHOULD BE DIFFERENT FROM THE NEW ONE IN YOUR CURRENT SAVES FOLDER.

Go through the files and hover. It will show the dates. Before everything fucked up on 13/11, I had a few saves from 25/10/17. SO I knew that was the safe one.

Go back to the pop up shown above. Click RESTORE, bottom right.

There will be a prompt saying you can’t undo it. Click Ok.

LAUNCHYOUR GAME NOW.

And then go to the “LOAD GAME” at main screen again. You should be able to see your last few saves before you deleted all of them.

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I hope this helps guys. Sorry, it isn’t the best guide cuz I ain’t no IT savvy gal. Just a regular, old fashioned and retarded person who only knows how to play the game and download a fuck ton of mods but have absolutely no idea what to do when shit hits the fan.

Let’s hope the glitches are fixed soon! 🙂

 

 

I AM A PLANT. I NEED CO2.

Introducing to you guys…

CO2 LASER treatment for your face.

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BE LIKE A PLANT. have you ever seen a plant grow acne or scars? Look at their luscious leaves and beautiful flowers and fruit. SMOOTH AND .. LUSH

I’m just kidding don’t go and look at your flower pot now. But then again, I am pretty positive your plant rocks better skin than you.

Previously, I did Venus viva laser in the Korean Clinic, Aeon remember? It was beautifully done but recently after my awesome nose threadlift done by Doctor Ryan at TCS aesthetics I was keen to see if a stronger laser treatment can help me with my scars.

Yes… its not just my heart that is scarred. 😥 LOL

Okay basically this CO2 laser is like a gigantic high tech alien weapon that blasts your face off and burns you in hell for a few days whilst your skin regenerates after the attack.

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Ok Im juz jokin it doesn’t look like that. Its just a freaking small lil pen that heats up insanely hot and burns you. But yes the hair on Dr Ryan has been accurately drawn. HAHAHA.

It is much stronger and more effective at targeting scars caused by acne than Venus. Hence, the downtime is 5-7days whereas I only had to rest 3 days for Venus.

You may go to TCS website here where they have a variety of lasers to choose from depending on what you want.

https://www.cosmeticsurgery.sg/youthful-skin/laser-treatments/

They can target aging skin, oil seeds, scars, pores, whatever you can ever imagine.

HIHI MY PROCESS:

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Beautiful day couches and lots of light. Yum yum picturesque.

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That’s just the bed they use to administer appropriate numbing creams etc. and For photo taking. Yes my forehead is fucking shiny. My knees and shoulders shine too btw.

I AM A STAR.

Numbing cream on, waited quite abit. Had to eat some medicine as well. Then finally, went into the Operating room 😉 to see my handsome Dr Ryan.

ITS FUCKING PAINFUL. I could feel my soul being scalded away. But its bearable. There’s no pain greater than an empty wallet.

So basically the laser pen just goes over your face covering the areas you want to target. Just like Venus. but this one really pain factor 6/10. Venus was 0/10.

IT WUZ OVER DAMN FAST LIEK 20 MINS and my handsome doc went off already. Sad.

 

Right after the treatment. I couldn’t feel any pain yet because of the numbing effects yet to wear off. I was given a cream to prevent infections.

3 hours later:

I LITERALLY DIED. MY ENTIRE FACE FELT LIKE I WASHED IT IN MOLTEN LAVA.

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I sprayed AVENE water on my face and it helped to lessen the angry pain.

Day 2:

Considerably less red and does not hurt anymore.

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Day 4:

Started to dry up and flake. Redness subsided.

Day 6:

No more redness but see My flakes. LOL I AM A FUCKING ANACONDA.

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Day 8:

I finally dared to put on light blusher. No foundation, no correctors. Just blush, eyebrow, lipstick.

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No more peeling!!! 😀 Don’t you think I look absolutely radiant in that full face pic. HEHEHE. My face is shining!!!

Nice nice ma? 😀

If you guys are interested in it please do drop me a message on FB or Insta or pigeon courier whatever. Alternatively, you can drop by the clinic and say “Valeisky’s friend here!” who knows maybe the doctor will give you special incentive like a lap dance.

I’d take it any day.

This is their number: 6221 8221

Hope you guys find this post useful for those thinking of doing laser treatments!

Coming, leaving, letting go.

It soothes me. The sound of rain, pitter pattering against the pavement. The slight glimpse of a lightning flash, preparing your heart, to anticipate the hearty boom of thunder.

I used to be scared of it. But she was always there for me. Since I was young. She will take me in her arms, cradling me like a little baby. “Hush Hush. It’s ok. I am here. There’s nothing to worry.”

It’s weird though. How I couldn’t comprehend anything that came out of her lips. But I could feel the security she provided. The comfort that spread through like wildfire. Like an invisible barrier, shielding me from harm. Like light of heaven.

The storm is brewing like a witch’s cauldron today. I curled up more tightly in the make shift tent I found, under the bridge, deserted by some homeless man who probably found a cozier abode.

Reminiscence of my childhood is blurry. I can’t really remember much. I only know I was taken from my mother when young. Thrown into a filthy place where a man with the smell of stale cigarettes and cheap whiskey would constantly come to terrorize me and the others, young and petrified. Probably all taken from their mothers too.

And then I met her. She felt like the mother I never had. Or even, a lover from my past life? What do I even know about it? Somehow. It’s just a feeling.

She has the most beautiful smile you know? Always smiling. Well. Most of the time. Sometimes I know she would cry because Jake hits her. There was once I lost control and tried to defend her from his cruel, drunken blows. But I was still young and helpless. He threw me off with just one swipe from his tattooed, muscular arm. I recall banging into the kitchen door, wounded from the impact.

She would then plead for him to let me go. “He’s just a little boy. Let him go. Let him go please Jake.” From then on, when she looked at me with pleading eyes, eyes cried swollen, I knew I will only hurt her more if I tried to speak up. So I learnt to just hide in a corner, trying not to even make a whimper whenever he hits her again.

I miss her so much.

I drifted off to a slumber, before waking up by default. It’s the time of the day again. I raced to the tracks I knew too well, past the railroads, to the familiar house by the stream. I would have stayed on there if I could. But the place was taped up by some men in navy uniform.

I am waiting for her to come back. I think this is the 68th day since she’s gone. I know that she will! Because I love her so much. I am sure she will…..

Footsteps approached me. I maintained a defensive stance, eyeing whoever that was approaching me. It was a kind looking lady, accompanied by a rather handsome man. She held out some food in a paper bag. It was macdonald’s! The irresistible scent wafted so strongly through my nostrils. I tried to keep a stoic expression. But my stomach growled.

“Hey kiddo. It’s ok. I know you must be hungry. Please, take it.” Her hand was outstretched. I went forward to accept the food and devoured it ravenously. The pair sat together with me by the sidewalk.

“I am Jane, and this is my buddy Walter. We are here to help you okay?” She said gently, holding out her hand again, affectionately.

I started to cry. All that pain, all that longing. It came crashing down on me. Jane held me in her arms, just like how she would.

“Hey kiddo. I would like to bring you to see someone you will love to meet.” I nodded, and followed.

I got into their car, and Jane sat with me while Walter drove. I looked out of the window, my heart palpitating. Are they bringing me to see her?

We got out to a grassy place. The sweet scent of flowers delighted my senses as I followed them anxiously. We stopped in front of what appears to be a large stone.

Its her!!! That beautiful face. It’s a photo stuck onto the stone. I went forward to inspect the stone. A weird feeling washed over me. Somehow… I could sense her. I could feel that she’s around. But where???

I turned to look in bewilderment.

Jane knelt down, beside me. She cupped my face in her warm palms. And I saw a tear roll down her cheek. She’s crying.

“Kiddo… she didn’t leave you on purpose. You know that right? She’s an angel kiddo. She’s in heaven now because… Because heaven needs her help. And you are a good boy isn’t it? Surely you will allow her to help out?”

The words came to me in a blur. I could not really understand it. But I know the word “heaven”. She always told me that I came from there, and that one day we will be there together.

Can I follow her then?

“Look kiddo. She wants you to be strong. You gotta be strong for her okay? She wants someone to look after you. And one day when you are ready, she will be waiting for you.”

I glanced down, trying to register what Jane said. I looked at her beautiful photo once more… and I, I think I understood.

Weeks later, I was introduced to a new home. A kindly young man, probably not much older than she was, took me in.

“Hey boy! Wait here. Someone coming through the door any minute would be SO happy to have you.”

So I stood right in front of the door, slightly nervous. And waited.

I heard soft footsteps approaching. And the door swung open.

“SURPRISE!” The kindly man shouted happily. It was a woman, with a nice smell, and the same kind of dazzling smile that she used to have.

“Oh my god Gerald!!!! HE’S SO AMAZING. HE’S PERFECT!!!” She knelt down and reached out her hand.

“Bob, is that? Bobby?” My eyes grew wider at that familiar name. That’s right. That’s what she always called me!

The woman had tears in her eyes too. But she was still smiling. “Bobby, I promise to love you forever.

Coming… leaving… letting go. I will go to heaven and She’ll be there waiting. I’m sure.

With an excited yelp, I wagged my tail and jumped into her arms.

I love you too.