Mere illusions.

Have you ever missed someone so much, that in your bed at 3am, that longing keeps you wide awake. Your body is immobilized by the encapsulating pain of their absence. Recollection of their touch sent tingles down your palm, to your fingertips, of which that electrifies you with sardonic emptiness.
You cannot erase, how well you remember, the ridges of their bodies, the distance of their heads away from the edge of the pillow you shared.
You cannot forget… how much they loved you. the only thing that remains unchanged now, is the familiar ceiling, the shrouding darkness, and the cycle of waking up to realize things will never be the same anymore.

Hola, peasants. ๐Ÿ™‚

Your goddess has been having insomnia. My eye bags are like 50 shades of black.

Anyway, bad things aside, have you guys made your shitty lil new year resolutions that no one really bothers to stick to after awhile?

I will be going Taiwan soon. Don’t miss me too much okay? If anyone needs me to buy them something (I’ll be going taipei) let me know in advance. I am leaving on the 8th.


This is a screenshot I took whilst playing sims 3. I loaded every expansion pack I have + about 600mb of custom downloads, and it still runs smoothly. The game has originally set the graphic settings to high, but said it failed to recognize the graphic driver. I am not surprised… 970m is really new ๐Ÿ˜€

I am soooooo happy to be a hermit and just seek refuge in my virtual world on this beautiful laptop and just create the stories I always wanted to have in my life but will never get the chance to have.


Stay safe and enjoy this awesome start of the year okay? I have a feeling it’s going to be a great one. I read this wallet fengshui article on facebook (forgot who shared it) and I realized I have already been following the fengshui rules leh. Truth to be told I am not a millionaire yet, but okay la, at least not losing money. HAHAHA.

Here’s the tips if you wanna try your luck to get rich ๐Ÿ˜‰

1) Wallet has to be black, (to get richer) or brown (to save more money).

2) Never use blue or red/orange! Blue = liquid = spend money like water. LOL. red/orange = burning = burning ur money

3) Don’t use odd shaped wallets. The best will be elongated ones so that your notes will be straight, not folded.

4) That being said, its all because you have to respect your wallet & the money inside if you want fortune to respect you in return.

5) How to respect your wallet? Don’t dirty it, or leave it lying around. Always put it in a safe and comfy place. (But of course you don’t need to make a bed with blanket for it la)

6) Always treat your money with love and care by making sure they are sorted out properly and arranged in an orderly fashion (eg, all facing the same direction, and by numerical value order.) I have always done that because I have OCD ;D

7) Don’t clutter your wallet with shits like receipts of how much money you spend, bills that indicate how much debts you incurred, expired membership cards and etc.

8) I have always followed this one – Put more cash in your wallet, and it will “Grow” more cash. Don’t always have like, less than 5 dollars in your wallet. My parents used to say, wealth is “Attracted” to people with fortune. I have always made it a point to have at least 300 dollars in my wallet that can’t be touched, and an additional 100$ in my cards’ pouch.

Have fun guys!

the best things in life are not free, they come at 2.2k in the shape of an ROG laptop.

I fucking swear,

it’s either I am a poor + stupid woman, or wordpress is really a fucked up piece of shit. For a start. YOU CANT,!!! YOU CAN’T go to the web template editor to edit your own layout using html codes.YOU NEED TO PAY LIKE 70 BUCKS TO DO THAT.

WHO THE FUCK WILL PAY 70 BUCKS just to change the font used in the blog??? OR 70 BUCKS just to CHANGE THE COLOR OF THE HEADER. I don’t see that happening at

Okay, forget it. You don’t let me customize my template, that’s fine. Let’s go over and see what other ready made ones we can use. OH WOW. 90% OF THE THEMES NEED TO BE PAID FOR USAGE.

It’s not 1 dollar. its not 5 dollars. ITS FUCKING 20-70 dollars for one bloody fucking theme AND THAT STILL DOES NOT INCLUDE the CUSTOMIZATION OF YOUR OWN HTML. I think. I don’t know. because ain’t nobody so stupid to buy the themes when I can make one myself.FOR FREE. IF ONLY.

I am seriously thinking about moving back to but the transition will be a hassle because I already have so many posts and photos uploaded here.

The current font and color for my current theme seems to make it hard for you guys to read coherently. Trust me, I tried all of the free themes but they suck balls. I am so sorry. I will definitely try to see how to tweak the photo sizes and typing arrangements so its best for you guys to read with ease.

Now that my screen is 17.3″ I need to make sure I make the photos smaller even though it looks extra small on my screen.


Anyway, enough of whining. ARE WE NOT GOING TO TALK ABOUT MY ROG LAPTOP????
<inserts crappy music mix> But first, let me take a selfie.ย 

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Took this at the food hygiene course I attended. I really loved my eyeliner on this one because for the first time its actually balanced on both eyes. I kinda miss working at the small company that conducted the courses… It was a place where I can be creative, informal and still get to provide customer service. But really… the pay and the boss is like >.>

That was years ago tho. Time flies, as like everyone says but we all failed to fully see the power of every second. Now that I think about it, there’s only (theoretically) 5 working days in a week, 2 days for us to play. then it becomes a new week. There’s only 4 weeks in a month. Its really really fast. We only realize how fast it goes every Sunday, and every end of the year.

Your goddess is getting old, and not a fair bit more awesome than before. I need to change that.


OKAY, So before we get started

on my ROG lappy, here’s a quick pic of my favorite smoked duck. It’s from cold storage. There’s two types, one is the original, and one black pepper. Get the black pepper one because the other one tastes like fetus.

And yes, its really really good. Expensive though. 4.95 for one. But its large, tender, juicy, moist and flavorful. It’s the closest you can get to wetting your pants from food.

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The cute boy working at challenger called, and said MY FUCKING BABY IS WAITING FOR ME IN THE SHOP.

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I walked into the tiny shop and saw the beautiful box (extremely large too) waiting for me by the cashier. Cute boy offered to help me set the laptop up.

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There’s the cerberus which is a gaming headset that comes included in the purchase. It’s a promotional item so it’s not available off the shelf.

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I squealed when he took the laptop out because it was so beautiful. My heart was pounding so fast! Omg.

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My hands were shaking when I took this pic. HAHAHA. I had work and a jb trip so I was only able to unpack and set it up at home like 4 days after bringing it back.

This is a comparison of my old laptop vs the rog:

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rog full size

Can you see the difference in the screen quality? It’s pretty hard to see the size comparison because my older one was already 15.6″ so not that much of a difference in size. But the rog baby is really heavy… about 4.3kgs as compared to 3kgs (my old acer one) It comes with a bigger and heavier battery too. God. Definitely not meant to be travel-friendly. Hahaha.

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Here’s a close up of the screen + the crimson keys.

It took me about 45mins to transfer my files from the old laptop into the HDD.

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But the ROGbaby only took about 20mins. But okay la, most of the new computers now already have USB 3.0.

I made a video as well, Sorry I look extremely ugly in the video. My face is somewhat distorted in there and I am not sure what the fuck happened as well. LOL.

Click here to go to the original youtube link :ย
if the fucking video above doesn’t work.

Okay, now that you have seen that really stupid ugly video of me and wasted 1.30 minutes of your life, here’s another photo of me to re-beautify that image of your goddess in your mind.

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Worked for this new dance club called The Stage. Its the old St James Powerhouse and oh my god, so nostalgic. I used to frequent there back when I was 18-19 on Wednesdays and Saturdays. I love RNB and hiphop. Those were the days when music and dancing was more emphasized than drinking drinking drinking and girls pestering you to buy them shots because they earn commission from it. (That is basically every drinking place now)

The stage is actually a pretty good concept, and the boss is an extremely humble and friendly Korean guy. It has a live band playing all night, and a good mix of 80s, RnB and abit of edm. Very good ambience. However in my personal opinion… It’s not good to have “party girls” there who are overly pushy for shots. It deviates from the “Chill-out” concept. But well. I have decided that I won’t be working there anymore, But i may pop by for a drink one day.

I think one of the reasons why I can’t be successful in getting guys to buy me “ladies drink” so that I can earn from it is simply due to the fact I myself don’t endorse the idea of men spending 100-150 dollars for a tray of fruit juice. Of which, I only earn a small share of. Might as well give me the money….

Also, I never believed in asking/begging for something from a guy. I think that if he is sincerely and genuinely interested in wanting to make a good impression, he will buy you the drinks on his own.

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I worked during the soft launch of The Stage and the friendly boss bought this for another girl working there. 30 tequila shots. And nope, I really wanted to help her out but I hate tequila. Its the bane of my life.

Enough of nightlife and work and money. It’s fucking stressful to talk about them. LOL. Let’s destress and look at the resemblance Z has to chickens and ducks.

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LOOOOOOOOOOOL i don’t think anyone of you will allow me to take photos of you guys the next time we go out together.

rog baby 23But hey, I do take normal photos with people too. I love the holiday season and will always wear the santa hat when I am out. Sorry, Look like shit here with only a face powder. Yes, I love this photo only because I look cute with the hat. LOL ๐Ÿ˜‰ ๐Ÿ˜‰

Went Christmas shopping with Mr lawyer and he brought me to a yakitori place called Sumire Yakitori House at Bugis Junction. Stuffed our faces with an array of food. The cold tofu in Goma sauce damn fucking awesome. I also really liked their “chicken tail” and Mushroom sticks. Way cheaper than my favorite Yakitori place, Tori Tama.

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Notice that super fat potato croquette in the middle of the photo. If you haven’t watched the video of it I uploaded on Insta, please do. It’s fucking awesome. HAHAHA. my insta’s name is Valeisky if you haven’t already know.

So I chanced upon this whilst online. Now we know who to not offend if we want to stay alive.

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Looks like I better not drive Z crazy lest you find me one day with a razor embedded in my throat. No wonder he always told me he likes razer products. NOW I KNOW.

Here, have a pic of a fat and generous slab of foie gras.

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Don’t worry, your goddess didn’t have the privilege to eat it too. Mr lawyer sent it to me because Leos love to evoke jealousy in other people. HAHAHA. Fuck, i almost typed “invoke jealousy”

invoker lol

LOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOL. Anyway I do not own this beautiful drawing of invoker. the original photoย is accessible by clicking the photo.

I may upload a video of me playing invoker soon with Z screaming instructions at me as a mentor. But first I need to get a camera because fucking iphone.


I had to cancel work (fucking x1.5ย pay $$$$) because of bad gastric. And I was being so sad and emo at home thus my sweet sister decided to ask me and Z to join her boyfriend and her for a mock-up christmas party at home.

She hung the glowstick on our very grumpy lycan:

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rog baby 30me: Waaaa mei,so romantic, you make heart shape for you and jasper ah?

Now we know. HAHA

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LOL. My sister bought this packet of fake snow and placed it into a container. It does actually feel like the real thing. Just that you can keep this for a long long time ;D

I prepared some last minute Christmas dishes and we had some wine. I couldn’t eat too much tho, But it was all great.

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We had almond cheese crackers, Spinach pizza, gyoza nuggets as well as lychee+longans and even a mini logcake. HAHA.

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I guess money can always be earned. But nothing beats spending a special occasion with people/animals that love you. ๐Ÿ˜€

Yes, I am a very very lucky girl ๐Ÿ˜€ Thank you to all of you who bothered to buy me a present. It really means alot to me because I spend alot of my hard earned money buying presents for everyone who matter because I know it always feels nice to receive an Xmas gift!


Let’s end things on a wonderful and happy note with an essential oil that I came across whilst hunting for presents:

rog baby 38Quantum technology ๐Ÿ˜‰

Goodbye guys. I hope you had a good Christmas and a coming-soon New year ๐Ÿ™‚ It’s time to make those resolutions that we don’t fucking fulfill again, is it not? ๐Ÿ˜€

Thanks for reading thousands of words painstaking written by your goddess for 3 hours.