The beauty of longing

I had a dream of my grandfather last night. It was a beautiful dream and I was crying in it. All the years of silent, subconscious longing ran rampant in the make believe scene of absolute dismal, angst and ; happiness.

He was in a car with me in the dream. I could not remember how “old” I should have been in the dream. But definitely, a small child, probably the indication that made most sense – for I was closest to him during my childhood years. I was cuddled up in his embrace. It felt as though I could smell the talcum powder he used to dust over himself after shower. I could feel the wrinkles on his broad palms. And as I was, a bundle of over brimming loved up grandchild, I could feel the warmth that he has always emitted.

(I remember holding his hand in restaurants when I was cold, for he was always warm.)

The car was driving, as though a long winding road. He repeatedly patted my hand and said: “Don’t worry Ah pai (my nickname), don’t worry. ”

I was crying like a heartbroken maniac because even in the dream I knew he was…. already gone?

I was actually crying and clutching his hand so tight, and telling myself (in the dream) Please, please don’t go Gong Gong, please…

He smiled at me in the dream and out of nowhere he passed me alot of money. (Indicative of my financial worries)

The car finally stopped. He brought me to a Grand and beautiful hotel and said, hey, look I found a job that you will really love. And its totally relevant to your degree. Work hard okay? (Because we all know I am now looking for a new job)

I was supposed to “commence work” as the GM of the hotel was waiting for me. I turned to look at my grandfather who was walking back to the car. I started crying again and soon the beautiful dream all started to fade away. But he turned back in the dream to wave and smile. and he mouthed “Take care!!! Work hard qiqi!”

I woke up crying, as I am, still crying now.

It is now that I realize the beauty of longing. There are some people that truly will never leave your heart. Even with physical absence, even with time. I begin to think, that’s probably what true love is all about.

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HAZE THERE GUYS

HAZE HAZE GAIS how’s everyone?

Still coughing? HA HA HA. Sorry I haven’t done my post as promised. I fell sick due to hazy life conditions. HA HA HA HA
I AM SO LAME, JUST EXTINGUISH MY DEMONIC LAUGHTER.

I am not sure about your area, but over at mine, I swear i will bump into Jesus.

So Yes, all complaints aside, I told you guys that I really want you guys to know more about the RYDE app that I used to get home from the airport!!!

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MONEY. MONEY IS THE MOST IMPORTANT THING IN THIS WORLD. SAVING MONEY. You can laugh at the auntie for taking a goodie bag or tabaoing food home from buffets but at the end of the day she did not lose, but gained. SO NOW LET THE GODDESS TEACH YOU HOW TO BE AUNTIE.

I am a true blue budget barbie (other than food). Most of the time, I will take the public transport home from the airport, even if I am lugging my entire wardrobe with me. Regular readers will know, I lugged my 4.3kgs ROG with 1 hand carry and 1 luggage to and fro home and airport previously. But sometimes there’s a limit to how much you can do, even though your goddess is divine as hell. 😉

SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO I know that the taxi from my house to the airport costs about 34-36$ during peak hours. That’s like… at least 8 chests in dota, 1 nice dress from Her Velvet Vase, 10 plates of chicken rice, two weeks of mrt fare or 10 bags of lycan’s treats!!!

But when I was on my way to HK, I was carrying too many things and it was too early in the morning for me to take the bus. Thus, I knew I had to take a taxi. D: Then I remembered I downloaded the APP called RYDE for my work last time. I was the flyer distributor but I never actually tried the app.

Foreword, I have never used Uber nor Grabtaxi or the likes before. So I wuz liek do i wanna try diz???

But I did, because 34bucks Im crai.

I heeded the advice from many people and looked for my ride (ryde) early. I started scanning for drivers like about 4-5 days before my flight. I got a response in a couple of hours’ time. The sad thing about it isn’t that it takes freaking long to find a ride for normal people, its just that apparently bukit panjang Being ulu as hell has very few “RYDE app participants” and alot of people are not always chillin around here. THANK GOD I FOUND ONE.

So the app tells you the details of the driver, as though you are fixing your first blind date. The car plate and car model of the driver is given, and you are able to see his profile picture just as he can view urs. SO EXCITING OMG. I AM SO LONELY AND THEY FINALLY PAIRED ME UP.

The driver texted me once the night before, and early in the morning on the actual day. He was early and told me to take his time. Such a sweet guy. OMG DO I LOOK FINE.

HAHAHAHA. So anyway we chatted alot and I was well on my way. Apparently the driver used to work in the airport previously so he knew his way around well and even dropped me at the correct “Door” to get me to the SQ business air counter. I didn’t even know shit. HAHAHAHA. And he offered to drive me back when I am coming back to SG. He said he should probably be around the east on Thursday night.

LIKE WHATTTTT IM REALLY LUCKY FOR THE FIRST TIME IN MY LIFE. I thanked him and paid and left.

PAID 11.80.

OK!

11.80 OMG FOR PEAK HOUR AND TO THE AIRPORT

Its freaking cheap you know?!??! I even took a photo of the driver :’D

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Being the goddess of course my noble steed drove me home safely on Thursday night and even offered to help me with my luggage right to my door. HA HA HA.

You are even allowed to give a feedback for the driver/rider on the app once the ryde has ended. Its quite cool omg. :’D im on the prowl for my rich husband to be. HEHEHE.

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GODDESS VERDICT:

I do not think this app is for immediate response, unlike Grabtaxi, however it is really worth your money if you are planning a trip way ahead, Like, going to the airport, like me! Or, you have a huge project next week and you are carrying alot of stuff. It’s a good way to save money when you know a taxi is needed. We all wouldnt want to waste such money!!!

Btw, this applies vice versa too, if you are a driver and U wish to “earn back” abit of your petrol money.

Download the app on ur app store (android also can) Called RYDE, It’s some gay looking orangey-purplish icon. Create your account and upload your super chio photo. Then you are good to go!

Instead of Uber, which I understood from friends that they operate on a supply-demand basis so the price will fluctuate;

RYDE DOES NOT ALTER THE FARE THAT YOU PAY/EARN PER RIDE.

How they “Earn” from you, is that once a match make is confirmed, they deduct 1dollar from your account that you can use to “Search” for matchmakes.

To get you started, feel free to enter the promo code “RYDE011 ” in the “SHARE” tab to get $5 credits free ;D

Love all of you. ❤

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LASTLY JUST TO SCARE U THIS IS MY NEW PASSPORT PHOTO I AM USING FOR MY RESUME. HA AHAHAH

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HAHAHAHA WTF I LOOK LIKE A RETARD NO ONE IS GOING TO HIRE ME.
See you soon peasants. KISSES.

HAI HONGKONG

I AM CURRENTLY A STAY HOME TAITAI GUYS.

IT FEELS GOOD. In case you guys do not know, I am “quitting” my job in the events industry. (I am still considering to only participate in major, decent ones whenever available). This is a huge step for me as I have been doing it for more than the past 1 year!

Before that I just want to thank all of you, especially readers who have been following me since this website first started out. It has been quite a long time! Haven’t it. ❤

My 2nd session of Aviva laser is due this coming thursday, after which I will commence my job hunt to find a suitable daytime job that I will love. D: I think that’s even harder than me solving the rubic cube.

So yeaggggggggg let’s just enjoy this bumming period whilst it last. Do I feel bad about being “unemployed”? NO.

HAHAHAHA. I feel that its a luxury to be bumming in this world 😛

LETS TALK ABOUT MY HK TRIP OMG. It was really fun. I kinda expected it to be boring since I had to attend the auctions and all (the auctions were still boring tho) But it was a great trip 😉

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So the client put me onto Business Class. Sorry, but although your goddess is heavenly in her own dota world, she has never taken business class ever. YES OMG I’M A LOSER. I was lost as fuck at the airport. Thank god QH was there. He works for the airport so he showed me the way. WTF THANK GOD I DIDN’T LOOK LIKE A LOSER AT THE LOUNGE.

He showed me the way and I tried to appear as composed as I could even tho I was literally crying and melting into a puddle internally. FREAKING ALL THE RICH PEOPLE AND I WAS THERE BEING A POTATO.

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An extract from the client’s email:

“Hi Amber, attached are your flight details and itinerary. Feel free to make your preferred meal selection. Just a casual reminder, please do refrain from wearing slippers as I have placed you on business class. Have a safe flight and you may tap onto the wifi at the HK airport to drop me a message upon your arrival.”

I wuz liek oh my god babby i am flyin on bizness clas

The lounge had some decent buffet style breakfast spread with a variety of cuisines. IT WAS TIME TO GO ONTO THE PLANE, COMPOSE YOURSELF LOSER. I told myself as I awkwardly walked into the plane, not really sure where the fuck my seat was.

I DIDN’T WANT TO TAKE PHOTOS BECAUSE IT WILL APPEAR UNCOOL BUT BUT BUT I REALLY WANTED TO KEEP IT FOR MEMORY SAKE. SO I JUST TOOK IT AS SURREPTITIOUSLY AS I COULD. I LOOKED AROUND AND MADE SURE NO ONE WAS GIVING TWO SHITS ABOUT ME:

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DO YOU KNOW the whole trip I wuz liek looking at the guy beside me >>>>> and I observed how he fully utilized the space, how he opened each drawer/pocket to reveal different features. LOL OMG THIS IS SO EMBARRASSING. LET ME JUST GO KILL MYSELF OK.

AND THEN OF COURSE IT WAS TIME TO EAT which was my most favorite part. Since young. My grandpa always made sure I had enough to eat on the plane because I was so fascinated by the plane food DONT ASK ME WHY. IM RETARDED.

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But anyway like duh being the glutton I am I have already placed the order for what I would like to have. Thank god I did that because the >>>>> guy beside me had tim sum and we all know I hate timsum.

I ordered Seared lamb loin! They gave bread and some fruits as appetizer. The air stewardesses on board weren’t very friendly to me tho. WELL I THINK THEY COULD SENSE IM A POOR FUCK, NOT SOME DAUGHTER OF A OIL TYCOON.

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THEY HAD BANANA ICECREAM AS THE DESSERT AFTER THAT SO I GAVE IT A MISS. I freaking hate banana icecream. D:

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Four Seasons Hotel, Hong Kong

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I got the harbor view room. It was really beautiful D’: I’m crai when I entered the room. I could see the ships from the window.

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I liked the interior design of the room. It was light and airy. Gave that feeling of fresh comfort.

And as usual, I was obsessed with the bathroom. They gave L`occitane toiletries!

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In case you guys didn’t know, I am particular about water. LOL. I don’t like to drink boiled water, nor mineral water. But they only supplied Fiji Volacanic water in the room, which I hated. so I went to the club lounge to get a different kind. It was Vittel in the glass bottle. Well. who’s complaining. Freaking water also need to put into glass >.>

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Walked past the pastry shop from the famous Robuchon who have a few restaurants, of which have 2 and 3 Michelin stars.

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The desserts looked really fantastic and the place was always crowded but yeah you know me I don’t have a sweet tooth :”D and god knows how much they cost. 10000 dollars for a slice of cake maybe. LOL

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This Pret A Manger is everywhere in HK omg. Since it was just below the hotel, I popped by for “high tea” LOL. I really liked the salad and yoghurt. Its greek yoghurt! Unlike those “healthy” yoghurt from our usual overhyped up stores in Singapore :”D

Everything is made fresh and made healthy, as well as convenient. Just grab, pay and eat!

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I took a ferry. Holy shit i was so fascinated by the chairs. LOL NO SERIOUSLY THE WOODEN BACKREST CAN BE ADJUSTED TO FACE DIFFERENT DIRECTIONS depending on the boat going <<<< or >>>>

Omg I’m a potato.

And of course we all have to eat Hui Lau Shan at HK right. I can’t get enough of mango and rice balls. YAAAAASSSS

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Sauna & Spa

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I love their vitality pool here. It’s kinda like a hot Jacuzzi pool. However the music, the name of the pool and the design made me feel like it was a secret fountain of magic water that can restore 5 years back into your body. LMAO

Sorry.. I am fat. But I just had to show you guys how much i love my bikini hehehe.

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I was so blissful and so indulged in being alone. It felt wonderful to be this way, even though it was only 4 days D:

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Ok la. Not really alone. I had my little maomaocong to accompany me.

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Its fucking dumb of me to have chosen it as my travel companion. Its too small for me to actually hug it. HAHAHAHA. Most of the time I was afraid I can’t find it between the sheets :’D

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Langham Place, Hongkong.

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That was a crazy place man. The building has eccentric interior architecture. The escalators made it seem like a labyrinth leading to many different possible routes, some dead ends. The escalator so long, I found a new way to commit suicide.

BUT LOOK WHAT I FOUND. CUACA. The easter island statue :;D I was excited because KY2 and I had the most absurd obsession with the cuaca emoji on Whats app.

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There are like 5349294919 shops there. Kinda like our far east plaza. I suggest you pop by too if you happen to go HK. Lots of things to buy and all affordable. No gucci and chanel to strangle your wallet.

AND THEY HAD THE EGG THINGY EVENT. OMG the exhibitions were so damn cute even though i hate egg. I bought some stuff for my sister and cousin. LOL. A kind ahma took the photo for me. Felt abit like a loser because I was alone. AHHAHAHA

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AND JUST LOOK AT SASA IN HONGKONG LIKE SOME BEAUTY GURU PARADISE.

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I bought 103 pieces of masks :’D Just stab me now ok.

AND FUCKING GUESS WHAT I FOUND THIS FUCKING BIGGER VERSION OF MY TINY MAOMAOCONG I DON’T CARE IF THEY ARE RELATED BUT WHAT THE FUCK ITS TOO ADORABLE. 

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LOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOL i laughed at the sight in front of me for damn long because I just realized I have this retarded obsession with things looking like that because of the resemblance to Z. LOLOLOL OMG IM THE MOST EVIL PERSON ALIVE.

LOL I TOOK THIS LIKE LONG AGO BUT FUCK THEY LOOK THE SAME I THINK Z MODELED FOR THE TOY LOLOLOL OMGGGGGGGGGGGGGG I HOPE HE NEVER FINDS OUT THAT I DID THIS HAHAHAHAHAHHA BUT ITS TOO CUTE I CANT.

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level 101, Ryugin Restaurant

I was invited by the client’s friends (whom I had to be acquainted with on the last night of my trip to join them for dinner at this Japanese restaurant at a building,,, at level 101.

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My sister said the dress reminds her of 007 bond girls LMAO too bad I dont have dat booty and titty and I certainly can’t even fire accurately at myself to die :’D

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If you always felt lift rides to be awkward cuz everyone is silent, you will probably die from awkwardness taking this lift up to 101. LOLOL IT WAS A LONG RIDE and they even showed u how many meters are you away from ground.

This is the view of HK’s skyline from the restaurant. They had made a booking for a table by the window just so I could see how fucking high I was. I swear I was so high, even whiskey couldn’t take me that far. HA HA HA IM SO FUNNY

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Because It was fine dining. I almost died from starvation at the “fast” rate the food was being served. And listening to the old men talk about economics and politics… :’D

The starter dish was my favorite out of all the rest. Here are just a few photos of my favorite from the entire tasting menu.

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Its wild abalone with seaweed, caviar and chilled noodles and sauce derived from abalone liver. Extremely delicious.

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An assortment of sashimi. There’s a particular order that you have to start from.

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Foie gras pate with some sort of citrus. Quite an experience for me. LOL.

This is my second favorite. Grilled unagi wrapped with some vegetables. Really goooooooooodosodsoo

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Hand grounded matcha:

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I took a pano of the view from downstairs. hehehe.

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Time to go back D:

I didn’t want to take a taxi but what the fuck my ROG weighed a ton as well as my 20kgs luggage (I suspect its the 103 pieces of masks) and a separate hand carry of biscuits and shit for my family.

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So I took the RYDE app private car back home. ITS ONLY 11.80 WHAT THE FUCK. Probably would have been 35 for a normal taxi at that hour.

I will write a post about the Ryde app by this week. HEHEHE. YOUR GODDESS IS AN AUNTIE. You guys should definitely use the app if you are planning to take a fucking long taxi ride.

Stay tuned ok? 😀